A Remedy

So, in accordance with my last post I’m going to be trying to post more and more on here to fill people in on my happenings/thoughts/feelings etc. I would like to remind people that this is my PERSONAL blog, so things are bound to get personal. If this makes you queasy, then this is not the blog to be reading, maybe you should be reading Gizmodo or TechCrunch (some of my favorite tech blogs). With that in mind, I don’t intend on telling the internet my most innermost secrets, but I will talk about my personal life, personal satisfaction, personal goals, etc. So let the games begin!
My last post focused mainly on my dissatisfaction with my current situation and how I wished to contribute more to society. I felt a genuine lack of self fulfillment at my previous job and was trying to find a way to remedy, unfortunately most people who read that post thought I was a depressed, self-loathing piece of shit that was on the verge of suicide or something. I got comments that ranged from “I had no idea you were so depressed … is everything OK?” to “Why don’t you just join the Peace Corps.” despite my friends genuine concern (I truly appreciate my friends who read this and care about me), both responses were thoroughly unsatisfying to me. For gods sake, I don’t want to go join the Peace Corps. and I’m definitely not on the verge of depression. Relax people, sometimes a guys just gotta vent.
I’m glad to report that I have done something about this dissatisfaction. Over the last month I have been seeking employment elsewhere, I interviewed with Garmin Inc. in Olathe, KS and in Salem, OR. I also interviewed with a new start-up (WhiteCloud Analytics) in my current home town Boise, ID. (I say Boise is my home town since I have spent equal parts of my life here and my previous home town Escondido, CA) which would turn out to be the new job I took. I am glad to report that I am so very excited to start work there on Sept. 12th. The thing that really attracted me to the start-up over Garmin was everyone’s attitude, the engineers reminded me why I wanted to be a software engineer, they reminded me what I love so much about my discipline, and they seemed to empathize with my situation. The atmosphere was so remarkably different from what I’ve been working in for the last year and a half. There aren’t fellow engineers in the hall who don’t acknowledge you. There is no insistent complaining if an engineer doesn’t get their way (I swear engineers can be huge divas). They work hard, but they play hard. They take a genuine self-interest in the product they are working on. There is no disconnect, no us vs. them.
So I’m not really sure what I’m getting at with this post, but I just wanted to give a bit of a breather for those who thought I was depressed, and let you all know that I’m on the verge of finding a remedy. Maybe this start-up wont be all that I hope it will be, but maybe it will, and that’s the most exciting part. That I don’t know the future there, at my old job, predictability was key. As a 23-year-old software engineer and simpleton, predictability is the last thing on my list.

Indirection

Well inter-webs, its been nearly a year. The site has undergone some updates to its look and feel, but the content remains the same, some outdated cancer posts, some random CS rants, etc.. This lack of content is one of the reasons for this post, to keep something new, to refresh this blog with a new invigorated sense of self. Much like myself, the blog needs some direction. Recently graduating from Boise State University has been an interesting journey, to say the least. Forgive the inner monologue of this post, I’ve been doing a lot of reflection lately.
The recent weeks have been a sort-of emotional roller coaster, do I stay safe, stay in my hometown (Boise, ID), do I choose the path to a nice house, nice yard, middle-class income, working 9-5 for the stockholders? Or do I devote my life to something more? Higher education? Social Good? Volunteer work? What can people with my degree (Computer Science) do that is socially good? This has really got me thinking about where I should take my career.
One of the great parts of Computer Science is ability to find a job most anywhere, in most any industry. Everyone needs a back-end software developer, everyone needs a website author, in this ever-increasing age of online “identity” people are struggling to make something of themselves in the real and digital worlds, creating a unified identity.
So enough with the boring stuff, there are a few recent projects which have peaked my attention through other blogs and social networks. Code For America has really peaked my interest and I am currently considering delving into these social good types of jobs. I just don’t know how long I can work for the stockholders? If I pursue a career for another Fortune 500 will this increase my overall happiness? What will make me happy? This lack of happiness has been prevalent over everything I do, I need to find my calling, what have I been chosen to do? How can I, individually, make the world a better place for each and every person? Do I educate myself more? Do I gain real-world experience and amass meaningless sums of cash? Clearly there has to be more to life, there has to be something that I can do that will fulfill my desires. So I’m reaching out to you online world, what should I do? What do I devote my life to? What can I do that is socially good?

Interesting

I pulled this off a buddies post of a post, originally from Engadget.com.
Despite differing political beliefs, there is one thing we can all agree on. This is interesting.

You’re now gazing at President Barack Obama’s just-released official portrait — the first of a U.S. president ever taken with a digital camera. That means we can peek at the EXIF data — this fine specimen of portraiture was snapped with a Canon EOS 5D Mark II on January 13th, 2009 at 5:38 pm with no flash, using a 105mm lens stopped to f/10 at a 1/125 exposure, with an ISO of 100 by newly crowned official White House photographer Pete Souza. Nice work, Souza — but we think it could use a few lens flares.